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Here is another entry into my short blog about our pets and our recent loss of Lucy, our special companion. We call all of your pets special, but this time it was especially true. Lucy was special to me in a way that I can’t quite pin down.
Six months is a long, long time…
Anyway, its now been six months since her passing – not sure that my grief has improved much but I am leaning toward the conclusion that it has. I still miss her daily and think about her often during the day…
Half a year! That is a while, and it does seem like I am forgetting some of the smallest memories of my Goose. Just the little things – the things that still come to me in my dreams. The feeling of her prickly hairs agsainst my skin, etc. I am not usually one to remember a dream after I wake up, but I have remembered a few times in the past weeks – and Lucy was a feature in those that I did remember.
I also do not study the “human condition” much. My wife does that; I really try to refrain, generally. I am not sure what the healthy length of a period of extreme grief is. I know there are stages and I know that I am progressing through them. But, when will I be OK with what has happened? I am not there yet – not by a longshot.
One of the things that has helped (and possibly hurt) my condition is the availability of photos, videos, and even music that I can use to remember Lucy more vividly. In some ways, it may be a way to “bring her back to life” in my memory banks and sometimes to relive the loss of her – which is very painful indeed.
New Directions
We have had some twists and turns in our lives this past month, and in some aspects it seems that our lives are now turning in a new direction. While we do the things we do to move in the diirection that we choose and which makes us happy – we engage in them always remembering Lucy and wishing that she could be here to be a part of our lives and whatever new adventures that life brings to us. But sadly, that cannot be. We are now building new memories with our special companions – our current ones.
Just one example is that we recently sold our Ram truck. While we did not have that truck all that long (about 2 years), I did have some good memories of my Lucy in that truck with me. Some of them are in photos and in video – I’ll share one here. But it was hard to let the truck go for that reason – it’s connection to memories that I have of Lucy Goose. We also just traded our Mini Cooper in; both of these vehicles were used to shuttle Lucy and our other special companions on walks and trips to the park, store, or wherever.
Life Goes On
I do know from life experience that it goes on. What goes on? Life.
We are ever thankful to God for our lives here with each other and with our special companions. I think Him every day for the ten years we had on this Earth with Lucy.
I sorely miss that Goose….
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